ANDERSON, Ind. — Wide receiver LaVon Brazill faced the media Monday morning for the first time since news broke of his four-game suspension for violating the NFL's substance abuse policy.
Brazill tested positive for marijuana, and he said after a walkthrough at Anderson University that his perspective has changed for the better.
"Oh, yeah, I messed up," he said. "I let my teammates down and let the organization down. I'm just trying to stay focused and keep moving forward."
The latter could prove to be a little more difficult after his transgression than it might have been before.
Brazill appeared in 14 games last season and flashed potential with 11 catches for 186 yards and one touchdown with an average of 16.9 yards per reception. His most notable play came during the comeback win in Detroit with a 42-yard touchdown reception that pulled Indianapolis within 33-29 with less than three minutes to play.
Some of that goodwill, however, was lost when Brazill ran afoul of the league.
"Pure disappointment," Colts general manager Ryan Grigson said of his reaction when he heard of players getting into trouble last month. "The owner was disappointed, Chuck (Pagano) was disappointed, our owner was disappointed. That's all I can say. We weren't happy. We expect more out of our players, and we won't stop having high expectations for those people."
Tight end Weslye Saunders was cut last week when former professional rugby player Daniel Adongo was added to the roster. Saunders faces an eight-game suspension after violating the league's performance-enhancing drug policy.
Brazill likely isn't facing that fate. Yet.
"Everybody's looking at me different," he said. "But I'm still the same guy, still going to come out here and work hard and prepare like I'm starting the first four weeks and move forward from there."
Brazill can practice throughout the preseason and play in the four exhibition games. But when the regular-season begins, he'll have to watch from home as a litany of young receivers compete to take his place.
Players like Griff Whalen and Nathan Palmer made good impressions during the spring, and Brazill knows he's opened the door for his competition.
"(They're) going to get a good opportunity to go in there and make plays," he said. "So I'm confident (they're) going to go in there and replace me and have a good camp, a good season."
Brazill said he needs no further motivation to ensure he won't find himself on the wrong side of league rules again.
"Oh no," he said. "It's money over everything, and I don't want to lose millions of dollars. So (marijuana's) out of my life."
The second-year receiver from Ohio said all he can do now is work hard to regain the organization's trust. He doesn't plan to prepare any differently than he has in the past.
He made a mistake, he'll pay his penance and then it's time to move on.
"Just stay clean and move forward," Brazill said. "Come out here and work hard and show I want to be here. Then just continue on with my life and focus on my future."